First Vision of Lord GaneshaAugust 24, 2009 at 6:30 pm | Posted in memoirs, writing | 13 Comments
Tags: the ontological status of fictional characters
For obvious reasons. (neither guilt nor shame, despite what some would tell you, adjusting the hem of her skirt) In my late teens and early twenties, when I was studying at the University of Queensland, there was a strange synchronicity. I followed a ‘trane of thought into ‘the ontological status of fictional characters’. I think I ended up there by trying to figure why revolutionaries became existentialists, but I believe in the complete unreliability of memory. It isn’t verifiable, Mr Quine.
At the same time I had a kind of psychological collapse which was most probably a ‘schizophrenic episode’ although I never sought diagnosis from a paid professional, having seen them teaching the ‘static brick’ theory of mind complete with diagrams. I am glad of this because I believe it was the ten or fifteen years it took me to figure out my own cure that forms the basis of all things good in my life.
Sometimes I lie under a tree made for climbing and think of that perfect fusion of moments as a singularity from which my life emanates, a kind of instantaneous shattering of frog on glass. I have practised all kinds of meditations, methodologies for dissolving the boundaries of self. Excuse me, if I begin to sound like Rimbaud, beginning lines of my poems with a capital I, although it’s true i am most loved when in e. e. cummings mode.